I've been dislike CNY for years....
Cz I don't feel connected.
It feels like I am in a cocoon and all the emotions are shut off.
Yet, this year, I am so far away from home and me beloved people,
I feel deeply connected.
Is it the coldness and darkness that make me homesick?
Or I finally become not so disattached?
To be honest, I am happy to be able to feel again.
Hopefully, trust issue can be the next one to be solved.
Happy Rabbit Year and happy bday to my self. 
I say (1)